Are you living your BEST life? If not, what's preventing you from doing so, and what are you going do about it?
#TestimonyTime I was at a speaking gig & someone asked, how do I keep it all together & look so effortless. I laughed & teared up, telling this young lady how hard these months have been. I’m just resurfacing & trying to find myself. No, I wasn’t in Bora Bora suntanning on a yacht! Life was kicking my butt. ⏩ There are situations in your life, that shakes things up & stops you in your tracks. Wishing they are positive but can take you to the darkest days. I felt completely depleted, unworthy, empty, etc 😔. I struggled to get out of bed, talk to anyone, or do anything. So I unplugged completely (sidebar, you don’t need a dramatic situation to unplug & refocus. It’s so necessary). As I wondered what I would say when I started engaging again - wanting to remain my authentic self but finding balance between authenticity, transparency & privacy. Still trying to figure that out, but I didn't want to start posting all these highlights without acknowledging my recent struggles. ⏩ For months, I woke up wondering what my purpose was? Why am I still here? Why me? Why now? How much more pain & disappointment can I take? Sheesh got real. Depression sinks in - wondering how can EYE not have it together. Mad at myself for not being appreciative of all that I had, have accomplished & able to do. I honestly didn't know what to do. If you spoke or saw me on my rare outings awhile ago (social anxiety kicked in), you would've sensed something was "off". But by His Grace! God's Grace, leaning on my unwavering support system - they refused to let me drown❤️, my therapist & my affirmations. ⏩ Even as I write this, I still don't have the answers & make an effort, daily, to push through & find joy, purpose, & grace. Just know - it’s ok to not know. It’s ok to not understand. It’s ok to unplug. It’s ok to cry. It’s ok to go to therapy. It’s ok to do whatever you need to do to make YOU better. Pastor Steven Furtick (Watch his sermons! He has been a blessing during this journey) said it best, sometimes its better not to understand. God wants to set you free of expectations & understanding. Obedience is your job, outcome is God’s; let the source do His job! 🗣 AMEN! 💫 *big hugs*
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