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Good Friday #600: Make Yourself A Priority (Friday, June 29)
CPTgram: Some time in 2017, I had a melt down. My life was in the best place that it has been in ever. I’m not the wealthiest I’ve been (I was rich in my 20s after selling my properties) but my income (from multiple streams) was the highest it had been in my adult life. I recently married the man I spent my entire life looking for. Had a wedding that was a page out of Black Historical Joy books. I was indulging in the things that brought me joy. I finally made Ocha, which has been a spiritual goal for over a decade. My book got published by one of the world’s most important publishers. I walked into a standing ovation in front of a thousand people at my book launch at Brooklyn Museum. But I still melted down. Why? Because I was BURNED OUT. Like done. I had nothing left to give. Not only for anyone else but for my SELF. I thought I was depressed. I was crying and felt an unexplainable sadness. Then it dawned on me that I had been going so hard, chasing after dreams, and even joys, to the point that the fumes that I was running on were past exhausted. I also was in the midst that f a crisis related to my past sexual abuse. Some of my closest friends were beginning to battle health crisis - strokes, autoimmune diseases, etc...it was at that point that I committed to my self-care. In a radical way. That journey has looked like me getting a GREAT therapist. He is East Indian, (I preferred a person of color who wasn’t a Black woman.) I started saying NO more, turning down projects and opportunities that would leave me overextended. I take naps. I’m committed to creating wealth for my family and descendants and every other Black person on the planet. For my 40th Birthday I wanted to turn up with some of my closest friends and come to Costa Rica to indulge in Radical Self-Care for the Women of Color Healing Retreat. Although the retreat was not I expected or paid for, which made me leave early, and find accommodations for my last few days in Costa Rica, I had an incredible experience because the Universe connected me with an amazing group of 10 other Black women. #fortyisthenew40 #itstartswith40 #itsstopswith40 #selfcareovereverything #radicalselfcare
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